I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. ~Psalm 16:8
I have said many times for many different reasons that I’m in the remedial class of spiritual growth. It just seems to take me a REALLY long time to learn things and to apply them and to bury them deep in the recesses of my heart. You may be surprised to hear this (no comments, Mr. P) but I have control issues. Admitting the problem is 90% of the solution, right? That’s what everybody says anyway. These control issues manifest themselves in various ways. I can hear a news story about some tragic event that happened to some poor child and I’ll gather all the information I can until I’m satisfied that could never happen to me because I would never do A, B, or C that this mother in this situation did. For example, my four year old will never crack his head open going over Niagara Falls. I hear that story and sigh a sigh of relief that I’m safe from that particular calamity.
Of course, I know deep down inside the part of me that’s not kidding itself, that this way of thinking is a house of cards.
I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. ~Psalm 34:4
I must trust the Lord in ALL things, things I think are in my control even, when really they are in the hand of the sovereign God of the universe. What can I control? Not a pea sized bit of nothing. I try to protect my children. I do all the “right” things. I think I have discernment. I make sure their world is safe, predictable, wholesome, Christ-centered, and good.
House. Of. Cards.
The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe. ~Proverbs 29:25
All of those things are wonderful and noble goals which we should all strive to pursue for our homes and our families. Don’t misunderstand. But, to think that I can do anything in and of myself to protect my family is foolish thinking. My only hope is in the Lord and I have to trust him with everything, including my family. Including my meticulously created safe environment. Including my own control. I have to open my hand and give it to him because He is my only hope. Apart from Him we are in peril, each and every one of us.
He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defence; I shall not be greatly moved. ~Psalm 62:2
The Lord has taught me this again. And again. And again. Maybe one of these days I’ll get it.
My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. ~Psalm 73:26








